NAJ.

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Bad day.

Today's a bad day. I'm so moodless the whole day. I hope tmr will be so much better. Firstly, i was supposed to take my BTT today however, i didnt because forgetful me forgot to bring my IC. Okay fine, its my fault for not checking.. But the staffs at CDC are really horrible. Since the day i registered for my BTT, i think the staff there really sucks. It was time to take the test, so i went into the room, the person told no ic, go to the supervisor & he continued with the next person. Im like how the fuck do i know where is the fucking supervisor. K fine, they told me go straight turn left, near the counter. Okay, i walked there. damn it. So many rooms near the counter, which want?. Nvm. I walked bck into the examination room & asked the person agn, where is the the supervisor room? Ok this time he directed me. Then, i went into the room. That stupid man in the room think that i was invisible. Nvm. So i talked to him & told him " they asked me to look for the supervisor." Then he was like "oh there." in a very heck care attidude. By then i was already boiling mad. Okay, so i went in the room, told the supervisor, i only have Ezlink, no ic. Sigh.. there goes my BTT test. He told me a lot of things which i think was crap. I cant take my BTT & i've to fucking wait another month & pay fucking 6$. You dontknow how much i want to faster get this done so i can moved on with the other tests. I stomped out of that fucking place with so much anger until i cried.. I know, i cry very easily.

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So i took 966 down to woodlands. Fuck. Stucked in a jam. I was running late already, so i had NO CHOICE but to stop & cab dwn. But it was only 3$ plus, so i was fine with it.. The performance was so so. I'm sorry i felt very restless.. After performance, helped out at the booth for awhile then went to tampines to meet Sam. Ate subway. Went hme at 10pm. Asked my dad to pick me up at the bus stop. Urgh, got nagged by him. Fuck man half my day was screwed & now this..

My tuesdays RJ is still not done yet. Sighhh i've got no mood for it.

Her tears like diamonds on the floor.

(A long ago picture..)

I'm in class now! One more team & 6p to go before school ends. Have to go help out Rexaz booth! Anyone who is from RP, come join Cheeerleading okay!

Boring.. I know nothing about today's problem. Was suffering in class with a bad tummy ache again! Kris told me maybe the food is not digested properly. I think so too, because i have the feeling in my stomach that food is not digested properly :( The pain was on & off and it was difficult for me to concentrate or do my work in class. When presenting, i was just reading my slide without even understanding it. Sigh.. Gonna get a bad grade today.

Training later! It is the last day to train for our performance for tmr. Oh talking about performance, i'm having my BTT tmr before the performance. I think 50-50 i would fail and pass. I really don't know because i havent been studying much for it. I've got no time. I only can study in the bus on the way home or on the way to school. I wish that i will not flunk the test if not i'd have to wait for another one month.. Wish me luck!

somewhere we went wrong.

School was rather restless today.. It is the second week already. I'm getting more & more slack in class. Module's are getting boring too. After school, help out at the Rexaz booth for awhile before heading to bishan for Gymnastic. Tried to do a some tug(?) & i landed on my head. Kinda hurt my neck and head after doing it. Webcammed with Ahshit in class today agn! Miss that girl so much. Havent seen her yet ever since school started. All right, i'm getting a little tired here. I'm going to go get sleep now! TTFN!

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If you're smart enough, you'd figure out what's the PW. Yes, it's for you.

"you know how they say you only hurt the ones you love. Well, it works both ways."

L.O.V.E

"Love is an untamed force. When we try to control it, it destroys us. When we try to imprison it, it enslaves us. When we try to understand it, it leaves us feeling lost and confused."

We're not falling in love, we're just falling apart.

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And all the past is just a lesson that we've learned.

Finally, week 1 has pass! Trying to adapt to the new RP system.. But i still think they should extend the break or lessen the work burden!! So on friday's module was RDNA. I was very restless that day because of training the day before. RDNA wasn't interesting to me. It was so difficult!! Studied about Virus, DNA & idk what chain thingy.. After school, met Nigel. Headed over to his place. Ordered Mac, 12 muchies! Slept after eating. I slept from 7 plus all the way till 6am. Hahaha yes i was very tired. Cabbed hme, bathed & got ready for sat training!. Trained for the upcoming performance on wednesday. It was fun & tiring at the same time.

Training ended, went to had lunch with Alan & Cheryl at Mosburger. After that went to mom's house.

Btw webcammed with pinky blonde shittty asykin on friday!!! Omg i miss her so much & i miss the classs. Miss all the peanuts & coconuts, heh.. & most of all i miss the block W1. You know walking to W5 every morning is much more tiring than walking to W1. W1 is just right infront of the entrance! & it is close to 711, booklink & my fave canteeen. W5, zzzzz. Want to go E1 canteen eat must walk super far i tell you.. Somemore breakout time have been reduced, zzzzz.

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Baby, you're the only thing that's been on my mind.

Omg i just finish presenting it was so scaryyy. Chemistry was making me go nuts. Today we learnt about octet rules, lone pairs, lewis structure, bond pairs, blah blah blah. Srsly it is damn difficult & boring at the same timeee. Luckily i pulled it off! Had my laughing fits again in the middle of presenting but it only lasted for few seconds, thankfully.. I really think RP should extend our Breakouts!!! Some of my classmates didn't eat due to the lack of time, so poor thing :(

Yay i'm excited for cheer trg l8r. Sigh. My btt is next wed & i only covered 1/3 of the book? I don't want to fail. So need to study for it. Tmr's module is going to be RDNA. Sounds hard & yes it is! Heard from my SAS senior that it is interesting but difficult at the same time. wah die.. tmr is going to be another NUTS days. Zzzz. Okay! Class's over!

A broken mess.

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And this is how it feels when I ignore the words you spoke to me
And this is where I lose myself when I keep running away from you
And this is who I am when, when I don't know myself anymore
And this is what I choose when it's all left up to me

And this is how it looks when I am standing on the edge
And this is how I break apart when I finally hit the ground
And this is how it hurts when I pretend I don't feel any pain
And this is how I disappear when I throw myself away

Wonder Girls are so hotttt!

Everybody's going crazy over this song & dance. So am i! The dance steps is so cuteeee!

First day of school was pretty awesome i guess. My new classmates are friendly, alittle quiet though. Well, it is just the first day of school! Had breakfast with my dearest girls!! Finally! after not seeing them for so longgggg! I hate the RP system now. The 1st breakout is only 45mins. I don't even have time to eat & i have to rush to eat so i can complete the worksheet given by the faci(s). 2nd breakout is only 1hour 45mins? Still have to rush! Hate the feeling of being so kan jiong. Prefer to do my work slowly.. Ytd after school, went for gymnastic. This gymnastic classes is so much better than the previous! But i was drained after gymnas.

Second day of school! It was so much better than the first. At least our class started to interact more. Today we learnt about Mirco biology. It was pretty interesting.. It doesnt bores me. I thought it would but no it didnt.. After school, met Nigel for awhile before meeting the cheer mates. Training was fun today! Prolly because i was in high spirits. Finally managed to remember my dance steps for the coming performance. Just need to be sharp thats all.

Okay, i got to go sleeep now. I'm tired. I'm going out tmrz! Yay to no sch on weds! Anyw, thanks for those who cared & concerned! Really appreciate that. Don't worry i am fine now. Not emo anymore(:! Goodnight, don't let the bed bugs bite!

PS, SUBWAY IS COMING TO RPPPPPPPPPPPP! WOOHOO I LOVE SUBWAY!EAT FRESH!!!!

Did you forget..

Did you forget
That I was even alive
Did you forget
Everything we ever had
Did you forget
Did you forget
About me

Did you regret (did you regret)
Ever standing by my side
Did you forget (did you forget)
What we were feeling inside
Now I'm left to forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

So now I guess
This is where we have to stand
Did you regret
Ever holding my hand
Never again
Please don't forget
Don't forget

We had it all
We were just about to fall
Even more in love
Than we were before
I won't forget
I won't forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

At all

And at last
All the pictures have been burned
And all the past
Is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget
Please don't forget us

But somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song
But you won't sing along
You've forgotten
About us

Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin.

Schooool.is.starting.tmrz.o.m.g.

Sigh. I need more holidays. To pig. To bum around. To shop. To catch up with friends. To watch teevee. To play eat sleep! Nothing beats having holidays!

During the last week of holidays, tried to enjoy as much as i could.

Friday, went out with ohmichymich! Met her at AMKhub. Bought leggins! Then we settle down at MOSburger for awhile before we continue to shop agn. Went to Nigel house to stay that night.

We wanted to order Macs for supper but we were argueing on who is gonna pay blah & blah. We argued & argued till we fell asleep. There goes my 6pcs munchies!

Ytd, dog party/bbq(become cook) @rich's house! Catched up with the cheermates & coach tgt with her boyf. Played with the dogs. April( joanna's shihtzu) & Snowy(coach's bf's maltese) had so much fun chasing each other & almost ____ fill in the blanks yourself. Bought snowball there, he was being a good boy or rather, shy. Cabbed home tgt with Joanna ard 12 plus.

Sheena's dog Cherry!, snowball, April & snowy.

Coach Audrey & her boyf!

This photo looks like we were carrying babies!

Today, met up with gaya. We went to paya lebar! Shopped for really cheap & pretty clothes. Ate subway! Catch up with our lifes, like we always do. The day was awesome except for the warm weather. Almost melt while walking to the MRT. Why is the weather so freaking hot nowadays?
& the best thing is, my aircon is spoilt for 3 weeks & still not fixed! The fan is not enough to make me feel cool.

Anyw going to school tmr is also good becauseeeeee, I AM MISSING MY FRIENDS!

Sheeena, kehui & kris? Long time no see mannnnnnn!

But tonight, we'll leave it on the line.

I'm dead tired. There was training today. Ran 2.4km, did 35 jumping jacks, 40 push ups( hold at 10secs each set.), 10 squat jumps, 10(?) tug jumps & a few abs exercise.. I am going to head straight to bed after blogging. Damn, my handphone died on me today AGAIN. Need to sent it to Nokia care centre. My current phone is giving me lots of problem & its only like a few months old? Luckily i found my previous phone & i am using it as a spare.

Its the last week of the holidays, i am 40% looking forward to school & 60% not. I feel that my life is boring during the last week of holidays. The last week supposed to be fun :( !! Once school starts, my schedule is going to be so packed. It is going to drain me out for sure.

Okay time for bed. Ttfn!

some overdued pictures!

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Hello kitty!

OMG SO CUTE RIGHT!!!!!!!! GUESS WHAT IS IT?

IT IS A HELLO KITTY TOUCHSCREEEN HANDPHONE!!!! Nigel told me about it omg i want. so cuteeeeeeeee.

Yes... it wasn't over, it still isn't over.

Noah: Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.
Allie: So what?
Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like?

"My Dearest Allie. I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you. Noah"

I watched The Notebook, again. I'm so in love with that show & i realised that i watch it everytime when i'm upset. & everytime when i watch the notebook, i didnt get to watch the ending. I am still waiting for the ending part to load so i could finish it.. Urgh! still waiting..

The sunday that i was looking forward too.. is all screwed up now.

Last sunday like that, this sunday also like that. Thanks a lot.

now there's no place i could be, but here in your arms.

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I love Godiva chocolate omggg. Went over to sam's house for awhile just now & she gave me a few chocolates! I took 4, now left 1. I'm saving it for tmr. Hahahah.

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Helloo! Just came out from a warm bath.. Just what i needed when i'm having the time of the month! The cramps.. ahhh, they are killing me.

Anyw, i had two family gathering this week. One was my mom's side & the other was sam's family.. Bbq for both gathering & two days in a row. But the food were fantastic. First time at a bbq, i had such great food. My mom asked me why i didnt invite nigel over to the bbq. Ya why uh. I forgot.. Aiya invite him, he so shy shy want..

I stayed at my mom's house on friday. The nxt day(sat), met samantha at expo for church. After church, took bus to her aunt's house at serangoon. Her aunt's house was different from the others. It was very very cosy. Sam's cousins were very funny! Ard 11 plus, sam uncle fetched me home!

Picturesssss!
The pictures that has sam's face covered> she wanted me to cover it!

It's not a revolution just a cycle that repeats.

Nigel drew this monk. I cannot stop laughing because it looks damn fucking cute.

What a monk. Btw he is an art student & i think he has the highest grade in his sec school. isit? Should be..

Even though most of the time we're always quarreling, i still love you NAJ!

hhahaha. love the face!

BEP boom boom pow.

I can't find the original video. just make do with this. Love the song!

I couldn't get out from under.

Well, here we are again
Throwing punchlines, no one wins
As the morning sun begins to rise, we're fading fast
And we won't work this out.

Helloo. I stayed at home the whole day today. Woke up, ate, watch telly, slept again, woke up, telly, ate, watch telly again, changed blogskin, gonna bathe soon & continue surfing the net till i get tired. If you ask me " i thought you were supposed to work today?" Haha, yep. I was supposed to work, but my dad didnt wake me up.. So ended up sleeping all the way till 12?

Okay i'm going to bathe now.

I hate my current life. It suck. It sucks so bad.

I want to cry like a baby. I am not happy.

It's Not Me, It's You.

Sigh sigh sigh sigh sighhhhhhhhhhhhh. I am so sad.... I just found out that the SLA cheerleading performance is held on 29april which is also the date for my BTT. How can i not sigh? Why of dates, must it be the 29th. Why must it clash!!! Looks like i'd have to call CDC tmr to push my BTT date later & it will be very very late!! Have to wait again :( Urghhhhh.

Just came back from training.. PT was not as tough as i thought. However, we had to run 2.4km. I almost fainted after running the whole of 2.4 because of the bump i had ytd on my head. I nvr felt so shitty before after running. The feeling was terrible. Felt like vomitting + trying hard to catch a breath + trying hard not to faint. I had alittle of a black out feeling tho. Jolene told me my face was rather pale.. I'm feeling very weak now. Of cos la! After like how many months not training?!

Okay, i've got work tmr. MY LAST DAY. Actually, last friday was my last day but my dad damn calculative. He said " you still owe me a day because you were sick the other day & you didnt come to work.." Then i'm like " okaaay loh, fine fine expected." I'm quite looking forward to last day of work tmr. Idk why.. At least it keeps me occupied.

Holidays are gonna be over in like a week or so.. I havent get to enjoy enough yet!!!!! :(

Sigh.. okay i'm gna go grab something to eat, havent eaten my dinner yet. Damn, craving for popeye's chicken :(

Moments that matter.

Okaay i've removed the previous post if some of you had seen it. In the morning when i was about to go to work with my dad.. I think my dad & his gf had a tiff. My father was waiting for my dad's gf to be ready so he can drive her to work. While my dad was waiting for her, she told serene ( my dad's colleague which is working at our house) " tell that man don't have to wait for me." but she said it in chinese. Before serene could even tell my dad, my dad & i heard it already so we just walk to the car first. I was quite piss off with her.. Probably my dad had done something bad to make her say things like that but because she is an outsider, of course i side my dad.

In the car, my dad suddenly asked me if i like talking to her. My answer was okok la. Well i agree with my dad for saying " she always think she is right, we are wrong." My dad also told me that my brother don't really like talking to her. As for my sister, i think she is neutral. She talks to everybody.. Then my dad asked me about her son. Haha, i just told him straight " i dont like him & he is the most spoilt child i've ever seen." I cannot stand every action of his. Talking about him makes my blood boil..

After work, i'm going to head down to parkway to get something done & then go for rexaz's chalet. I'm so tired, im lacking of sleep this few days. Yawns...

Oh & one more thing..

My dad hired this new staff named Dora. She just went for a meeting at the construction side together with my dad's gf. When she came back, she told me this.. " The what condice pang. ( then i corrected her, candice you mean?) yep candice.. She like to swear a lot uhh.. Almost all her sentence got the four letter words." Hahahah in my mind i was like dont you know she is living with me. I wonder what would be her reaction when she finds out candice pang is my dad's gf. Hahaha.

What do i really want?

And this is where I lose myself when I keep running away from you.

Omg i hate mosquitoes, cockroaches & lizards!!!! Yesterday, when i was at my dad's office using the computer, i had a sudden urge of lifting up the keyboard. When i lifted up the keyboard, a cockroach was underneath it. I quickly cover it back with the keyboard & complain to my dad's colleague beside me & she chased the cockroach away for me immediately.

A moment ago.. I went down to look for food because i was hungry. I jumped upon seeing a lizard ran pass me suddenly. The insect or pest i cannot stand the most is lizard!!!! Hate it when they make the 'tsk tsk tsk' sound. Just wna burn all of them in my house. They look so rubbery with their disgusting color. Eeew.

Few days ago.. I suffered from mosquitoes' bites. Until now, i'm still scratching like mad & there are red patches on my legs & feets :( Damnnn fucking itchy & it is really annoying that i had to keep scratching! Pest just annoys me so badly.

Tmr is the 2nd last day of work, woohoo. After which, i'd be going down to bugis to meet up with sem2 classmates(:

Tday after work, met Kehui at FEP. Went to did manicure. I really don't like my nails color now. I really want to remove it but i don't want to waste my 5$ away. So i guess i'd have to leave it on until i really cannot stand it. It looks so light.. I still prefer the previous :(

After mani, walked down to cine. Had HKcafe for dinner/supper?. Then i took 14 hme.
Okay im going to sleep now. Goodnight!

strawberries with icing sugar.. Mmmm.

Monday blues? Not anymore!

Woohooo i can't wait for monday to come! I swear it's going to be the best day of my life!

Teeeheeee, wanna know what's on? It's aaaaaaaaaaaaa SECRET =b!

& no, its not an april fool's joke (;

hmmm.

I was talking to sheena & kehui on msn.. & we were talking about something.

That thing that we were talking about made me realised that i was also in the wrong for not being there. I felt really bad now. But hey, i felt bad at that time too. It is not easy to balance both sides.. Well, i hope either one could understand.

Yea it is true when you said it feels weird not talking to each other for a period of time.

& i really hope things between us would be fine like what we used to be(: