30 May, 2009

One day maybe it won't hurt so much..


"It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain."

It's like poison in my brain when i think about it.

27 May, 2009

25 May, 2009

You're like summer breeze, with sunshine.


PCD hush hush. I prefer the i will survive mix but the one on imeem is the one when nicole sings live. & it is not very nice. So i upload the original want..

Helloo! Wah damn sian tomorrow got school plus UT. I didn't even mug for it. Honestly i am not really serious about my studies. Lol. But my grades are still not bad la. Anyway i didn't do my RJ again. Comfirm get D for that module. Shit man, i think i need to make sure i complete all my RJs next week.

Yesterday, i went out with Melinda!! Woke up pretty late, 5plus. Wooooo, i finally can get to sleep like nobody's business! Met Mel at orchard. Did alittle shopping & then we had our dinner at MOSburger. We kept complaining about how slow the lady was when she was attending to us. Really damn slow loh!! Aiya but cannot blame cos they were about to close already. After dinner, we went to catch a movie, The Uninvited. Not bad, i wouldn't say great. Because the story line wasn't that interesting & exciting. The duration of the movie was kinda short too. 87mins only.. Next, we went to Mac Cafe, sat down & chill all the way till 3 plus 4? Then took NR7 home. The bus took forever to arrive. I was getting alittle impatient already & almost wanted to take a cab home instead. But in the end i waited for the bus.

Today, stayed at home.. Watched telly & used the internet. I did sewing too. Sewed my name on my lab coat. It is not done yet. It looks horrible & i'm not proud of it. Got pricked a few times in the beginning but after continious sewing, i got the kick of it already so the back part of my name looks better the front.

Oh & you know what!!! Remember i hurt my hamstring few days back? I only realised it today that there were blue blacks around that area. Looks kinda coool to me =/ I'm not looking forward to school tmr but i'm looking forward to trainings :)

Anyway, just now in the car, i asked my dad if i could add another name into my birth cert. He said have to wait till 21. I'm thinking of adding a christian name to my current name. I already thought of the name but i'm not going to reveal it here! Afew know already hehhhhhh. Like alawannnnnn. At first when he kept calling me that name, i felt awkward but now, the more i hear, the more i like! Hahahaha.

Okay pictures from yesterday's outting.







22 May, 2009

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This is a super random post. Skip it, if you dont want to read.

Finally, my I/C has been found! Yay, felt so much relieved. Anyway, i wasn't the one who found it. It was my maid! Happy happy me.

Another random rant, my favourite elephant pen ran out of ink :( I think it is not selling out there anymore :( The pen is super cute & the tip of the pen is very nice to write loh!
I need to find new pens already

Chemistry today, RAHHHHH super boring & i'm trying to understand.
Meeting Mel for Breakout later yipeee!

All right! GOODBYE!
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Vacation is coming in one week's time! Woohoo. Finally a break from all the stress in school. Many things lining up for the holidays. Helicon camp, Rexaz bonding camp, Kaygen's 1 month, trainings blah & blah.. But i want to do something unforgettable & I want to make my holidays worthwhile!
Haha, i'm slowly drifting away from lessons already =/

21 May, 2009

W55P Microbiology Lab!

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Today's lab is the most fun than the others.. Boring, there is another lab tomorrow again. Must wear long pants/long skirt & covered shoes again. Zzz. Took loads of pictures during the lab. We did on E.coli, agar, water sample etc. Lab wasn't that rush today, so still okay. But i'm feeling alittle tired now already. I have lots of pictures to upload!
My best group is teaming up with Zhi Wei, Lifei & Chia! There was a time when Zhi Wei made a face & then Li Fei repeated what he did was super duper funny! & Zhi Wei's hands always shiver when he tries to pipette the liquid. It was god damn funny!
After presenting, 3 of us, LF, Chia & i went to the toilet to shit. Hahahah. Teaming with them is such a joy. A pity Bjorn didn't come today..





















































After school, waited for Kehui & Sheena to complete their UT. Met sheena & we took bus to interchange while kehui walked with her friend & meet us there. Took 963 to vivo city. Kehui & i ate carl's junior. Sheena went to work! Shopped for awhile, waited for sheena to finish work then we went home. Sheena's friend sent me home, heh.
Yayyy luckily tmr no lab! Don't have to wear long pants/long skirt & covered shoes!







The beef chili cheese fries looks gross from here but the taste of it was superb!

& last but not leasttttt! my two dearest girls, sleeeping on the bus! Haha if they see this, i comfirm dieeee. Okay TTFN!

New blogskin.

Ahhhhhhhh just change my blogskin. Plain & simple, i like. Okay look at the time now. It's 3am. I don't even feel like going to school tomorrow. So boring. Plus there is lab tomorrow, even more boring. Hate lab to the max no matter how much people say how fun it is. Hate hate hate lab!
I better go sleep now if not tomorrow cannot wake up. Okay this post is random.
Goodnight sleep tight dont let the bed bugs bite(:

19 May, 2009

Do you care if I don't know what to say? Will you sleep tonight will you think of me?

I thought about it. This few days i've been so restless, moodless. Even when my friends ask me out, i dont want to go. It is like i rather go alone. My days cannot continue this way. I want to make it right. I want to come to school feeling all hyped up, have fun with friends instead of just sticking to myself most of the time. I don't know who to turn to because i know it won't make me feel better. This few days really made me think a lot. I don't want any of the following days to be like the past fews. I guess i don't want sat-sun anymore. I just want my life to get back on track.

Things that matters.

1:39am now! I am so so exhausted. Makes me feel like skipping school tomorrow again. My dad is sick, means i've to go to the bus stop to take 168 on my own tomorrow. Zzz.

Anyw today i didnt get to do my stuffs because Bestie came over to my place early in the morning to bake & make sushi for her boyfriend. It was raining heavily too, so i decided to not go get my things done. I'll just go down to queensway tomorrow after school.

Training was fine today. Coach Karen stretched me, OMG. What she say was true. Don't resist, just relax when you get stretched by her. I resisted alittle bit & the pain was almost unbearable. I think i hurt my hampstring :( I can't even do a spread eagle now :(

Again, today is a moodless/restless day. Just when, will my life get better? Currently, i hate everything now. Maybe it is part of my thinking that made me feel this way..

17 May, 2009

Skip school tmr?

YES! I am giving school a miss because tomorrow's module is RDNA & there will be two horrible, draining, tedious sessions of practical. Finally a day off........ NOT! Haha, maybe just half a day(: Would be heading down to school for training at 5pm.

I've sort of plan my day for tomorrow already. Still in the midst of planning it. Haha.. It would be a half-day spent alone anyway(: Here it goes..!

Probably, i'd set the alarm to wake up at 10am? Get ready & stuff, eat my lunch at home & then leave home by 11am. Go to a POSB bank to open up an account. Then head down to Eastpoint, to get my stud. Next would be queensway! Shop for sports bra & dry fit t-shirts. Then next, i'm not sure where to go already.. If not much time, then just head to school straight away. Although there is limited time, but at least i get to do what i wanna do! (:(:(:

Anyway, i am addicted to online shopping nowwwwww. Spent 139$ today just by online shopping. The clothes were toooo nice to resist! Hehh, TTFN!
i feel like eating ba kwa =/

16 May, 2009

You belong with me.

Zahirah's face so hilarious. heh.

Hello! After yesterday's gymnastic & today's training, i am drained out! Forced myself to sleep early yesterday so i will be able to wake up the next morning for training. However, i woke up late. Luckily i managed to rush down as quick as possible. Did 93 push up zzzz. After training, went to subway! Then i left first to meet my mom at kovan. Woohoo, after a rather painful training, went for a facial! But it was painful too. I was quite tired so it kind of distracted me from the pain. Haha. Went to my cousin's house to see her newborn baby, Kaygen! Super tiny & adorable can! & his poo smells like puke.

Anyway, finally i re-painted my nails! Looks so much neater! No more half-polished purple nails. Yesterday after school, i wrote down the dates of my UT & it is in 2 weeks time. I must push myself to study for it. I didnt do yesterday's RJ, even when i've the time to do it. I can't remember what exactly was the question but i know it was something like what have to learnt today. I wasn't paying attention during lesson & i didn't learn anything. So i decided to not do it. Partly because i was lazy too la. Chemistry used to be my best & favourite subject in secondary school but now, it is my worst & not my favourite anymore. So many calculations!!! What molar mass la, moles la blah blah blah. Totally bores me. I thought i'd be able to escape math after secondary school but NO! Chemistry also have to calculate.. Zzz. My calculations really cannot make it.

Oh ya! I want to blog about this. Yesterday i took 168 to woodlands. I fell asleep & woke up half-way during the journey. I looked out of the window & i realised that the surroundings were different from the route where 168 always travels. Majority of the people in the bus were puzzled too. The bus was supposed to travel on the highway but it was at yio chu kang.. For a moment i thought the bus driver was going to kidnap us loh!! I also thought they changed the route but i felt it was impossible. I could not sleep anymore so i kept looking out of the window. The driver drove & drove until it cuts in the highway.. Then, i felt relieved & i went back to sleep. Haha, i don't know if the bus driver was new & lost his way or he wants to use a shorter & faster way.

Shit man, i'm damn hungry now. I eat a lot this few days!! I need to maintain my weight if not i'd have to pay 1$ for each weight gained. I hate the feeling of wanting to it but scare fat. Zzz.

This is my to do list for the week!

(1) Go to queensway shopping centre to get sports bra & dry fit shirts.
(2) Buy a new tongue stud.
(3) Find my i/c.
(4) Book my BTT date.
(5) Treat myself to a good meal!

15 May, 2009

Strong on the surface, not all the way through.

This week, i had school.
This week, i felt like skipping lessons.
This week, i had trainings.
This week, i did my PP.
This week, my PP was approved.
This week, i felt a little drained.
This week, my heart broke a few times.
This week, i had two lab lessons.
This week, i really dread lab lessons.
This week, i had gymnastic.
This week, i picked myself up.
This week, i fall again..
This week, i don't know when everything will be the same.
This week, i know i wasn't like myself anymore.


People don't understand how i feel, because they are not me.
Strong on the surface but not all the way through.
I hope next week would be a better week. Or perhaps, tomorrow would be a better day. Or sunday.

Lab today.. Almost fell asleep.


Anyw i put up my Tagboard again. This time, i will reply those tags!

12 May, 2009

Drainedzxzzx

Lesson is so dry. I'm feeling so tired, i want to sleeep :( I still need to rush for my PP after school. No training today! Means i can take a good rest. I'm falling asleep in class soon. Speed up time to 3:45pm plzzzzzzzz!