21 guns.

This is gonna be a short post!

Sunday, bus 33 down to tiong bahru plaza.
Had free subway. Waited for sam to finish work.
Bus down to 85. Ate durians!! Didn't taste that good though..

Monday, skipped school.
Met Sam in the evening.
Supposed to watch I love you, man. But we were latezxzx.
Ate subway & slicee <333!!!
Bus 14 home.

Tuesday, i reached school at 0845am when it actually starts at 0915am. So friggin early.
2 White chip macadamia subway cookie in the morning!
Ate Slice fish bee hoon & drank carrot juice<333!
Met Nigel after school. Went to the cold storage near my place.
Bought Macaroni & cheese back home to eat. Nigel bought a cactus for me!
Did my RJ!

No school tomorrow, yayyyyyyyyy!

i don't know why i can't upload the photos.

Will do it some other time! I love my cactus, it's so pretty!
& 'm turning in early tonight(:
ttfn!

P.S, Chiaaaaaaaa supper sooon at simpang?!

Does the pain weigh out the pride?

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Sick and tired of being sick and tired.

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Do you know what's worth fighting for?

TRANSFORMERS WAS AWESOMEEEEEEE! MEGAN FOX WAS HOT AT THE BEGINNING BUT TOWARDS THE MOVIE, ALL SHE DID WAS JUST RUNNING RUNNING AND MORE RUNNING. LOL.

Caught transformers with my classmates yesterday. We sat at the 1st row. I had to keep fidgeting because my head was tired from tilting. The movie lasted for 2 hours and 30minutes. My butt was aching throughout the movie. Ate the famous bee hoon fish soup at the back of bugis junction & i took bus 12 back with Chia(:!

Before the movie, i skipped lesson with Kehui & we went to the robinson sale at Expo. Met my cousin and my auntie there. Bought a shirt back home. While i was walking, a stupid man stepped on my toe & it hurts so baddddd.

Rp already has 19 cases of h1n1 & the school has blocked the year 1. I also heard that my block have one case. & IT IS AT MY LEVEL.. ZZZZ. I think sooon the whole school will be block. The virus is scaryyyy. It is spreading so quickily.

I skipped school today. Didn't felt like going. Firstly because it is lab lesson today. Secondly, it is the module that i dislike.

Training have been banned by the school for a weeek. I don't know to be happy or sad. Happy because i can take a break from those PT? Sad because when training resumes, i'll be weaker than before..

And though you break my heart, you’re the only one.

I am very pissed, upset and disappointed. In a relationship, it is a two people thing. I am not dating myself. It consists of two people now, which means two hearts joined together. & it is not only about your feelings you've to think about all the time. Such a small thing, you can't even let it go? How long had it happened already? & out of a sudden you just bring it up to find trouble with me? In what ways does it benefits you? A sorry from me makes you happy? What about when our relationship is turning sour because of that small little thing that happened months ago. It makes you happy too? So now a sorry is much more important than our relationship. You always ask me to think before i act. Then what about yourself? Do you think before you act?

You know things are getting bad but you just won't do anything at all because you feel it ain't your fault at all. So only when it is your fault then you've to take action. So does it also mean that only until when our relationship is on the verge of breaking then you save it? Is this how it is supposed to be?

When i asked you, why wednesday you asked me to back, you didn't answer me at all. To me you were just avoiding the question. That day when you asked me back, did you change? You are still the same since the first day we got together. Honestly from the day we got back together, i dont fucking feel any love coming from you. & it is true that only when you need me, you find me. When you don't, you just push me aside. When i fell down that day and injured my knee, i told you the next day that i tried calling you but you didn't pick up. What was your reply? "Lucky you never keep calling. Cause i wanna sleep." Is this how you care? When i showed you my bruise, you didn't even bother to look at it.

If you don't love me, whats the point of holding on to this relationship? Just let me know & let me go. It will do both of us good. But if you still do, then show it. I am still able to take all these shit from you. But one day if it goes bad.. I'm not sure if i can anymore..

Snowball wears hoodie!

Oh man.. I'm missing that Ball already. I am gonna get him a new tee soon! Prolly a sleeveless want for the warm weather!

Yawns, i am falling asleep in class. I told myself not to be late for school today. Failed to fulfil that. Zzzz.

Gotta go for gymnastic later. After gym, go straight home to sleep! I hate schoolz.

School's giving me headache.

Yawns. I'm having a headache now. Lesson's so boring. I cannot wait for class to end.

After school yesterday, went City Plaza with EileenChia. The prices of the clothes were reasonable. I like most of the clothes there! Gonna go back there soon some day to buy more clothes backkkk! We ate Arnold's chicken. Not bad, but i still prefer Popeye's. Nothing can beat their mash potato!

On tuesday, went out with W55P people to Iluma. Had dinner at Thai Express. Slacked at some place for a while before heading home..

I really love to hate this love hate hate love relationship.

Hey guys. Sorry i changed my blog link again. I think i'm gna change it again anytime soon because i don't really like the current want. Haha.

Sigh, pretty disappointed with myself. Have been late for school for the past few days. I hope tomorrow i'll be punctual for schooool! Morning call anyone? 7am thankewwwww.

I've got so many things to blog about, but i don't know where to start. My life's getting better now. Haven't been seeing sheena, kehui & kris since school started. Sorrrry! Tomorrow lunch together k?

Okay, i don't know what to blog already. Let pictures do the talking!

Someone's watching over me.

Just photos & few words..

I have loads & i mean LOADS of photos to upload. But i'm just soooo lazy. I'm getting a new camera soon yayyy! These are the few photos i've combined together. It kinda sums up what i was doing during the holidays. Enjoy, even though there isn't much uploaded.

All said and done.

“The greatest irony of love is loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right & finding out you love someone after that person walks out from your life. Most relationships tend to fail not because of the absence of love (love is always present), but because one was being loved too much & the other was being loved too little. Most often we fall in love with a person only to discover that for them, we are just a past time, while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger. Here’s a piece of advice: Let go when you’re hurting too much. Give up when love isn’t enough & move on when things are not like how they were before. There is someone out there who will love you even more and surely then, you will know true love.”

My Cheerleading Squat, R.E.X.A.Z.

I have a sudden urge to blog about Rexaz. Since primary school, i've never stick to any CCA for so long & cheerleading is my first CCA that i stick on for so long & till now, i am still in it. Let's talk about the beginning when i started to join Rexaz. When i first join Rexaz, i did not have much of a sense of belonging there. I got drifted from them because i went for an operation. I needed few weeks to recover & i missed out a whole lot of trainings. When i got back, most of them had their groups of friends already. I felt a little left out. Trainings got tougher & tougher, i couldn't fly properly & i couldn't base. I was one of the weakest there. I felt demoralize of course.
When cheerobics was nearing, i opted out from it because i felt i wasn't ready. I made a wrong decision by doing that. Actually, if i was in cheerobics, i could grow out from there instead of deproving. During the cheerobic period, i didn't go for trainings. & this time, i missed out even more because it was bout 5 months that i skipped training, if i'm not wrong. I drifted a lot from the people there too. When cheerobics was over, i went back for training. It was weird. & i deproved A LOT. But from there, slowly my passion for cheerleading grew. I became committed to cheerleading & found two close friends there. Melinda & Alan. I'm happy that i've got them. They never fail to motivate me when i was about to give up. I'm glad that now i was better than before. Soon, the juniors started to come in.. Week by week we trained together & here comes the bonding camp. It was awesome, really awesome. I love rexaz a lot. & i love the people there. It became part of me, part of my life. Almost everyday is about cheerleading. Last time, i always hate PT & always had the intentions to quit because it was so tough. But for now, when PT comes, no matter how tough it is, i still love it. I always look forward for trainings, even though i am tired. I am glad that i did not leave Rexaz. I will never give up on this team. Because i know they will never give up on me!

Haha, this part is EXTRA. Hui man wants me to mention about her, lol!

Hui Man is my No boundaries singing partner, my guobao, my xu chun mei & my man-ed. She is SMALL but DANGEROUS okay!! & her height is 148.5? i think. Hahaha. Seriously, when you're with her right, most of the time you will be laughing. Because her actions is damn stupid. & she is damn thick skin, name herself snow white. She look like the dwarf loh! Oh! & she is my blueblack rubber. Haha. everytime when i've blue black, i always ask her to rub for me. Thanks uh AH MANNNN!

It is only the beginning.. I won't give up so soon. I know i can do it. For us. I must calm down. Just like how i calmed myself when those thoughts kept haunting. Lee Ling, you can do it. Be brave. You chose this. Face it. I'm proud to say, most of the time you were never here for me during my weakness moment.. It's okay.. I will face it myself. Even when you lied to me, i will face it myself. I will help myself from this. For us. I dont want to give up so soon. Lee Ling, be brave. No more acting like how you acted just now. Be strong. Pain is just weakness leaving the body..

Take me somewhere we can be alone.

Every second kills just to think of it.
Just how long more will this go on?

I wanna go home.

Helloo dear friends.. I'm currently on Super Star Virgo & i'm dying to go home!! Didn't really enjoy much here except for the food. They have buffets here EVERYDAY. There are breakfast buffet, lunch, dinner & supper. So many food for you to eat. However, i wouldn't say that the food here is delicious. I also enjoyed the sea breeze. I want to see the sunrise tomorrow. Hopefully, i'd be able to wake up.

I am missing trainings already! Karen's right. If you miss one training or more than that, you'd feel weird! I miss all my friends even though it is just a 3D2N cruise. I also miss that special someone out there a lot. My mom is at the casino now & my bro and sis is at a show. Gonna meet them later to watch Huang Zi Jiao perform. Doesn't interest me much but since my mom & bro wanna watch, just tag along lor.. 30$ per ticket know.

Everything on the cruise is pretty expensive. I'm being charged 0.23$ per minute to use the internet & i tell you the timer is ticking even faster than it is suppose to tick. Cheat money lor!!! Somemore the internet is so difficult to use. If i press something wrongly, i've to RESTART everything all over again, which means waste time & waste money. Somemore the internet load DAMN SLOW. So i've to be really careful with what i click.

Anyway, alannn! I replied your comment on the previous post but i'm not sure if it is posted.

I miss you guys so so much & thanks a lot. I know you guys will always be my pillar of strength(:

Will blog more when i'm back in singapore! Oh anyway, wanna blog something funny. I went in to the casino with my mom just now because she wanted to take back her card. When i went in, a sercurity guard stopped me & said i look young & he request to look at my passport. My mom laughed at me & said i am short somemore i got a kid face. Lolol.

Okay TTFN!!!

I'll hide all the bruises, I'll hide all the damage thats done.

Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart.

Its been too long pretending. theres no use in trying,

Cause the pieces don't fit anymore.

Until now, we're still fighting. I'm tired of fighting. I'm tired of you pushing all the blame to me. I'm tired of you not understanding. I'm tired because none of us wants to give in. I cannot fall again. Because it is difficult to pick myself up each time i fall so hard.

It is time to wake up leeling.

I'm moving on..

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Cause I only wanna be wanted by you.

Sigh..