Rants rants rants.

Rp is sucha loserrrr. It has already hit 90+ h1n1 cases & the school is not gonna close down the school because they treat h1n1 as a common flu. All right, i'm fine with that but i'm not fine with having to leave school at 4pm, shortening our breaks & being allowed to only go to a particular canteen. I feel so restricted. Today i just paid $6 for a thermometer so that i'd be allowed to get into the school.

Today is a fucked up day. With fucked up school & fucked up module. I know, i know. I'm being an annoying bitch complaining. Seriously i hate doing calculation ttm! Thought i'd be able to escape it after secondary school. But i was wrong. I know almost everything in life requires calculations but i just suck at it big time.

I think there is something wrong with my attidude in school. Haven't been enjoying much in poly as compared to secondary. Everytime i go to school, i feel so aimless & each time i leave RP, i feel so empty. Because i didn't gain anything from lessons. Most of the people in class is busy working their ass off to solve the problem statement while i just smoke my way through. I'm being honest. I smoke my way through most of the time. I act like i know but actually i don't. I don't feel the sense of satisfaction at all. I need to change this attidude of mine. & i want to. I want to go to school willing to learn. I want to gain something everyday before i walk out of RP. I want to feel that sense of satisfaction. Ya, all i do is talk the talk, but am i able to walk the walk?

My life isn't good now. But wait. It does not mean that it will NEVER be good. Just clearing some thoughts & working on my attidude. life is gonna get better. I know it will.