Sometimes when things just doesn't work, you've to let it go. No matter how much it hurts..

Lately, i'm having the same old problems again. It bought me back to the past. To the past where i still remember the feeling 'it.'

Things got better for us. I am happy. Both of us were happy. But recently, things started to change.
It's only the beginning that i'm starting to feel 'it' again. It's not to the extreme yet. & i swore to myself it will never reach the extreme part of feeling 'it'. Never.

Things are gonna get complicated once again. Looking at both our attidudes, i can see it coming already. I don't want to go back to what we were before. Because it would take us a long time to get out of our shit that we created & the process of it is really torturing..

I'm starting to think a lot. About us. About what will happen in the future. About myself. About you. There is still the past that we both are still holding on. & each time we talked about it, we cannot stop. That is the part where the feeling of 'it' comes in..

I'm confused once again..

P.S 'it' is the feeling that i once felt. It was so strong & painful. caused by someone whom i love so deeply.