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Omggg i feeel really bad neglecting this space here! I'm currently taking up two blogs, my very own REXAZ cheerleading team (click click click!) & my blog. I've to constantly update Rexaz's blog so its quite hard for me to update my own blog unless if i am very very freee! Because by the time i update Rexaz's blogggg, i'll be so lazy to update my own blog! Hehhh.

Anyway school has officially started! This week has really been busy for me because of the SLA FIESTA! Today was the first day of the SLA FIESTA & we had more than 100 people who signed up for cheerleading IG! :)))))) Tomorrow we'll aim to get much more than 100 people! Not only that but also more guys!

Alrighttt, i'll try my best to update this space regularly! Off to bed nowwww! Gdnight!

Walk, walk fashion baby, Work it, Move that bitch crazy.

Hello! I am wide awake now at 6am. Can't get to sleep & i don't know why. It's gonna be bad because school is starting this thursday. How am i gonna re adjust my sleeping time?! Okay, gonna make a short post because i'm gonna go watch the Cheerleaders(repeat) on TV. & Sleep right after that because i've training tomorrowww!

Went Powerhouse with Samantha, Charmaine & her friends over the weekends. I love DjKzeeeee! The music was awesome. Met quite a number of my friends there & it was super duper pack!

Few days back, went to ate crabs with Sam, Stan, his girlf & Chris @ kovan. The crabs are super cheapppp. 4 for $20 only! It tasted yummy too. After which, hanged out at pasir ris for a little while before heading homeeee. Okayyyy i know my post is very short but i'm rushing to watch my show. Maybe i'll come back & edit this post again.

& just a few pictures..

It's called a break up because it is broken.

I took this from http://www.ohsofickle.blogspot.com/

& i've decided to paste it in my blog because i find it really true & meaningful..

I felt a little better after reading it.

Excerpt from It's Called a Breakup Because It's Broken
by Greg Behrendt and Amira Ruotola-Behrendt

"There's no doubt about it-breakups suck. But in the first few hours or days or weeks that follow, there's one important truth you need to recognize: Some things can't and shouldn't be fixed, especially that loser who dumped you or forced you to dump him. It's over for a reason, and deep down inside you probably know what that reason is.

At the end of the day, it's about weather YOU like yourself enough to face the reality that your romance wasn't working.. to recognize that it wasn't giving you what you needed and deserved

Life's biggest rewards come from the biggest challenges.

Anyone who assesses you or your realtionship as "disposable" is not worthy of your time or tears.

Just remember, though, that any reasons you come up with are ultimately irrelavant. The harsh reality is that even if you have EVERYTHING else in common, the one thing you don't have in common is the belief that this realtionship can work. & that alone trumps your shared love of puppies, The Dave Matthews Band, and Mexican food.

A lot of the pain you are experiencing right now is actually fear. Fear of things being different then how you liked them, fear of never finding love again, fear of being alone, fear of having to fill your time differently. We're afraid of the unknown.

The person you loved took a good long look at the awesomeness that is you, evaluated your relationship together, and said, "No, thanks. I'll try my luck elsewhere." Or you said it to him. Either way, that alone should make you realize that it wasn't a match made in heaven

"I don't know" means "NO!"
"I don't know" means "I'm too cowardly to tell you the truth because I can't deal with confrontation."
"I don't know" means please do the dirty work for me becasue I don't want to hurt your feelings even more then I already have.

Awesome thought: The annoying thing that your ex did will never bother you again. I'm sure that your plan to get him back worked out in your head. I'm even sure that it worked out in some movie you saw. But your ex does not have the time to follow a movie script and you shouldn't either. Move on.

Every moment of pain, weakness, and discomfort puts you in a positon to choose how you will react and how you will alleviate your condition. Calling him doesn't make it better.. it only pulls you back into the cycle of heartbreak.


He is the past. You are the future.

Messing up his life isn't the best revenge. It's getting on with yours and living it to the fullest.

One of the suckiest and most frustrating facts of life is that sometimes relationships just end, often without reason. I truly believe that some times both men and women simply run out of love, even when there was a lot of it in the beginning.

Before you look for validation in others, try and find it in yourself.

As much as it sucks, you need to FORCE youself to remember your very worst times together, ..his most irritating habits and the hard truth that not only can he live without you.. but he'd rather.

You're giving an okay guy who cheats on his girlfriend a hell of a lot more credit then he deserves. He's a coward and a betrayer of not one but TWO women. He clearly feels ambivalent about you at best.. otherwise, he would have left this other woman a long time ago.

So many of us find ourselves saying "BUT HE WAS SO GREAT!" Yes, and the people who got on the Titanic thought they were going on vacation. Things changed and it's important to remember that they did.

Awesome thought: The right guy is out there right now, wondering when he's going meet someone just like you.

His regrets or lack thereof are exactly that- his . and not even the best little black cocktail dress can change that.

Every time you see him, you only make youself vulnerable to futher heartache. Do you really need further proof that he's getting on with his life without you?

The one who dumped you has had a huge head start on the healing. However long he entertained ending the realationship is also how long he's been emotionally extracting himself from you.

He was either partially or totally over it before you even knew it was going down

You weren't in the same realationship. That should answer ALL your questions.

You can love your friends.. ..you can love your family ... you can even love every stray dog or stray drummer that crosses your path. HOWEVER, you have to learn how to love yourself, like yourself, and put yourself first before you will ever find the healthy, loving, and lasting realtionship that you've been looking for."

Sometimes when we want something really bad, we lose sight of what it really is.

"You went away,

because you said you couldn't love me.

I went away,

because all i do is love you."

It is really so hard for me to accept the fact that you don't want me anymore. Times when i wanna talk about our problems, you kept pushing me away. You kept avoiding it. You don't wanna talk about it. You said you needed space. I gave you your space, but then again, you pushed me away. I'm tired but yet i'm still fighting on when i know it is not worth it anymore. You don't even fight for me anymore. You just avoid everything & assume what you think is right. You made promises to me, that things will change, we'll make things right. Each time you made those promises to me, you made me feel whole again. I trusted you not to break my heart, in the end you still did it & all you could say is, you don't me anymore. You don't know the reasons.. You don't let me speak.

You know what makes me upset the most? It is when you needed me, you talked to me so nicely & asked for me to be there for you. But when i needed you so so much, you tell me you don't want me anymore & you just wouldn't be here for me.. I hate to accept the truth. But i still have to accept it because the truth is not gonna change at all.. Being in this 1 yr plus relationship has really impacted me so much. I do have my wrongs & i do have my responsibilities but you didn't want to take any wrongs & responsibilities at all..

I've given my all, i've tried my best to persuade you to talk, but still you pushed me away.

I've nothing left to give anymore..

All i could do now is just let time heal the wounds.

But I Never Told You, What I Should Have Said.

"And now, I miss everything about you

Can't believe that I still want you

And after all the things we've been through

I miss everything about you"

Hellooo! Finally i'm not lazy to update this space. Actually i am, after putting a few photos into a collage.. Heh. But, i did not let the laziness get into me!

School's starting like next week & EVERYONE is dreading for school to start. Boringggg ttm! Daily routine of completing RJs & doing presentations are gonna start again.. Worst thing is, last sunday, my dad just told me that he will be out of town for two weeks. Fml, i've to wake up even earlier & travel to the bus stop to school myself :( & i've to walk back home at night after trainings.. Nooo, usually i'd take a cab home is my dad is not at home to pick me up from the bus stop because i'd be damn tired by then. I can't always take a cab back because it is not worth it! It is only a 15 minutes walk back home. What am i gonna do for that 2 weeks :( Should i stayover at my mom's place like what my sister's gonna do? I shall consider..

Since it's the last week of holidays, i'm trying to enjoy every single bit of it! Out with Gaya on Sunday to VivO City! Bumped into my cousin & aunt there. Quite awkward because i didn't know what to say.. Hehh. Shopping at F21 was awesomeee! I bought a top which i really like a lot! But it also burnt a hole in my pocket. Took many clothes to try on & i only bought 2 in the end.. Good also, can save more money!

The Fish Eye effect on my camera..

The Miniature effect..

After shopping, chilled at Gloria Jeans. Left at about 7pm, had dinner with my family at Laguna.. Yummy chinese food! Damn it, i'm hungry now....!

Met Crestlyn & Alan on monday! I took a train to meeet them. Because i was running late. I hate taking the train because there are always a lot of people & i don't have a seat to sit :( & also walking to the train station is longer than walking to the bus stop. Try walking a long distance under the hot sun, see whether you like it not! Okay back to meeting crest & alan. We ate at SLice again! Mmmmm, condense milk...

After SLice, we walked alittle before heading to Aston for dinner! There was a queue but we got in pretty fast. It has been quite awhile since i last ate Aston. Haha guess what's after Aston?

Yesssssssss. Its Rochor Beancurd! Basically, we're just eating & eating & eating the whole day! Had a great time at the beancurd stall. Took retarded pictures & you'll get to see it later(:

Trying to do Kungfu, lol!

Todayyyy, i met up with the W55P people! Caught When In Rome. Nothing special bout the show but it's not too bad either.. After the movieee, i ate at Aston again(: This time i ordered the potato salad. The potatos were quite hard & it didnt taste as good as the ones Alan ordered the day before.. Sat down awhile & it was funny seeing the boys being against each other. Went home early today because there is FYP early in the morning tomorrow. However, received a message from Jessica saying it is cancelled because the gas of the machine is not working. Quite happy because i can sleep till late noon! Hehe. Gonna meet samantha in the night for crabs tomorrow! (:

Anyway, my fringe is back to bangs again! & if you think cutting bangs is easy, it isn't! I took quite some time to make it less uneven! Until now, it still doesn't look that straight!

Okay before i end this post, a collage of a few single exs!

See The World Behind My Wall.

"The one that is meant for us is going to be the hardest to get, the hardest to keep, and the hardest to accept because through all that the love will grow stronger. Love wasn’t made to be easy, otherwise we wouldn’t end up with the right person. We would end up with the first one who comes along. By struggling we single out the wrong ones and realize who really is the one."

My dog is sleeping soundly beside me now & opps, i just woke him up accidentally.. Okay he's back asleep now. Hahah. My brother just bought him another new toy & he was so afraid that i'd steal the toy away from him. He kept protecting his toy when i tried to take it away from him. Soooo cuteeeee!

Urgh. Sorry for the lack of updates again. I always wanted to blog but i just didn't have the vibe to blog.. Heh. Sigh. most of the cheer people are at Taiwan now. I can't go because i've FYP & i've missed out a lot of meetings already so i can't afford to miss any more of it.

Life's just mundane now.. Everything is just so relax! But not as relax as the others at Taiwan >:( But im happy that i can wake up anytime i want (:

I'm still down with a cold. Had a runny nose since monday? My mucus was yellowish green before but it has turned clear already. Omg & a few days ago there were blood stain in my mucus, eeew! Okay i know you guys don't wanna know..

So last monday, there was training before the rest left for taiwan. They had to prepare a routine before they leave for taiwan. & while they were doing their routine, crest & i handmade a card for the taiwan cheerleaders. After training, the rest came to help us with it :)

Wednesday, went for FYP! Did the spray draying thingy & the bloody machine gave us lotsa problem! & my logbook feels really empty :(

Couldn't go for FYP the following day because i was down with fever. Hate the on & off weather :( Slept the whole day till 8plus & woke up sweating! Feeling really disgusting, i went to shower. & i felt so much much better after showering in cold water!

Friday, an impromptu outing with Crestlyn! I was bored at home, so was she & we decided that we should head out. Got ready & met crest in the evening at FEP. Ate first before heading for shopping! Shopping was awesome that day, bought clothes that i really like without regretting after buying! Alan came to meet us after his work & we had Rochor beancurd for supper. Shiok ttm!

Saturday, slept till noon, weather was awesome! Craving for porridge so mum brought me & bro for Oasis porridge! Yummy yummy yummy! Omg i feel like having it now again. Heh.

I need to sleep soon, really need plenty of rest for my flu to recover! Rainy weathers are really great but i hate it when it goes on & off. One day sunny, the next day rainy.. No wonder my flu never recovers.. Heh, okay i am to blame too. For eating food that i am not supposed eat :b

Alrighttt time to sleep now! Off to bed! Ttfn (: