It has been so crazy for me. I was dying for you. That the thought of you kept coming into my mind. I got so paranoid, being afraid you'd have someone else in your heart. But I held you so tight, that i neglected the fact that you were slowly slipping off me.
I think, it has been 5 months being separated from each other. & i still wouldn't let you go. The reason why i fought for you because i wanted to make things right, fixed whatever that is broken & also because i love you. I thought we could be together again. But slowly, i realize i was just living in denial. You don't need me anymore. I know each time i asked for you, it is just gonna make things worst. Each time i asked for you, it wasn't gonna help at all. I've been a pain in your life, so now, go. I'll leave you alone..
You always ask me, what do i want from you. Now, all i am asking is for you to be happy. I don't expect anything back. As long as you're happy, that will do.
Hey, just someone random passing by. I feel a lot for your post because I'm going through the exact same thing, & I've lost the man I love the most because I held on too tightly.
ReplyDeleteI'm waiting like you did, and I'm torturing myself everyday. I don't know how to get out of this rut I've landed myself in, neither am I ready to let him go because I cannot imagine my life from hereon without him.
Sigh, I feel comforted reading your posts because I know I'm not alone, and though we're strangers, at least we're going through the exact same thing.
Thanks (:
Hi there, i understand how you feel too. But still, don't torture yourself okay. You're amazing & everyone deserves nothing but the best. As cliche as it sounds, everything happens for a reason. & it's just gonna make you stronger.
ReplyDeleteFight for your happiness if you think it's worth it. All the best (:
Thanks a lot (:
ReplyDeleteAre you still waiting for him?