4 plus AM in the morning..

She looks happy on the inside, but deep down inside, she's hurting..

HeartFelt

I've been thinking a lot lately.. Actually, most of the time whenever i'm alone, i tend to think a lot & it leads me to nowhere. I'm not an optimistic person & I've plenty of negatives thoughts in me. I guess that's the reason why i feel emotional. Whenever i feel miserable, i'd try to think positively however it only lasted awhile. & then again, i feel emotional..

If you follow me on twitter, the time i feel emotional is when you see me spamming my tweets with a whole lot of emo thoughts.. I don't really like to share with people what i am really thinking unless i feel that i really need their words to keep me positive.

Sometimes i wonder, does everyone has thoughts like me? They say people may look happy on the outside but they are actually screaming on the inside. Does that happen to everyone? Why can't i see it. It feels as if i am the only one feeling this way. I wish i was a much more positive person. Then maybe things would be easier for me.

One of the days, i went out with C. & she told me the group of friends we usually hang out with felt that I've drifted way from them because i had a boyf. It took me some time to realize it. & yea, i guess we guys really drifted.. We don't hang out much often anymore except during breaks in school. I'm sorry i neglected you guys, because i myself didn't realize it. But i want you guys to know, every single one of you holds a place in my heart. Yup, every single one. There may be misunderstandings or small little tiffs, but you guys are still dear to me. Because you people were the ones who stand by me when i was at my lowest point. Please know that if anyone of you has difficulties with anything, I will be there for you, definitely. Sorry for being a bad friend ): but i'll try & i'm still learning.. I love you guys very very much, really i do.

I can't help but to feel disappointed with myself sometimes. I don't know to manage my time well & i don't know which are my priorities & which are not.. At the end of the day, it is just filled with disappointments because of the choices i made. I need to fix this.. but how will i ever do it right?

Hello Stranger.

04:24AM.

I'm on my bed right now. Since i'm waiting for my hair to dry, i'll update this space a little..

Had dinnz with my mom & sis @ eastpoint. We ate chinese & it was good. It was our 2nd time to that restaurant. Other than the slow service, everything's good(:

Met J after dinner with my mom. & we headed down to Ikea to get my night light! After which, caught Hello stranger at TM. The movie was effing funny! I'd rate it a 4.5/5? But it was kinda draggy that i got a little bored towards the end..

Gotta wake up early later on so i guess i am gonna go to bed right now! I'm all cleaned, weather's good for sleeping, just one thing that's missing is baby ): wish he could be able to sleep beside me right now. Even though we just met just now, but i'm missing him so much already ): Guess he's asleep already, stupid boy didn't send me a goodnight text!

haha, if you're wondering why Mr Dorng's above his picture. Those who watch Hello Stranger will be able to catch it(:

Alright, off to bed right now. GN!

Oreo Cupcake for the boy.

Everything's good except for the icing part. It didn't turn out that nice but i'm quite satisfied with the outcome! Heh. & an impromptu decision to make a card for him. I think it's so pretty! Never expect myself to sketch & draw everything out so nicely too! Happy that he's happy(:

oh & my blogging vibe is backkkkk!(:

12122010

You mean the world to me

..........even when you're so annoying!

Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday.

Omgosh. Editing pictures isn't easy at all! & the speed of my laptop isn't helping.. It took me 2 hours plus to edit just a few photos? & after collaging all the photos together, i'm so lazy to blog already. Haha, that happens all the time, that's why I've a lot of collage in my folders that are left untouched/unblogged.

I've so many many MANY things to update about but i only pick a few to update.

It was Crestlyn's birthday last Saturday! & we celebrated with her over at power house(: I'm not a good drinker & most of the time i'd puke after drinking but i was surprise that i was still sober despite drinking more than what i usually drink that day.

After that night, i went off first to meet J at pasir ris. That boy is damnn sweet i swear. He woke up at 0430am to prepare some stuffs before coming to meet me. & he had to wake up early the next day to study for his test.

So this was what I've got.......

Sandwiches & a heart shape egg(he is damn proud for his egg.)

& papaya milkshake which became a little bit like yoghurt hahaha, that we didn't take picture of.

It came at the right time because i was hungry after partying that night!

Thankyou babyyyyyy i love the sandwiches, make more for me can? hahahahaha.

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Okay, next is my bangkok trip with my Dad & sis.

On the first day, it was dad & i over at bangkok first because my sister had school. My dad went to MBK mall while i went over to Platinium! Every thing was familiar for me there & the feeling was goood! Shopped like there's no tomorrow! Shopping alone is my favorite therefore i had a lot of fun at platinium just by myself. During the night, my sister arrived.

On the 2nd day, went over to chak tu chak(sp?) The clothes there are crazily cheap!!! & i finally bought my dog's stuff. So much cheaper as compared to Singapore's!! Then we headed down to MBK to get some stuffs before we went to this chinese restaurant for dinner. The food was damn good! The sweet & sour chicken (or is it prawn? i can't remember) we ate. Omg that was like my fave dish among all.

Last day, it was platinium again. Bought a lot of clothes & high waist shorts. Was a happy girl over at bangkok! Was busy shopping over at bkk so we didn't take much photos. There are a few though. Haha, which are mostly me..

The burden's down.

HELL YEAH FYP I'M THROUGH WITH YOUUUUUUUU!

FYP

So, time flies.. It's the 2nd and last FYP evaluation tomorrow! Hell fucking yeah!!! Few hours ago, i was so stressed up with my log book but now, i am worries free because i've finally completed my it!! Seriously, it feels like i am writing a really long essay & my hand hurts from all that writing! & i don't know why ALL my pens ran out of ink. It's either there isn't any ink or halfway while writing, it ran out of ink. So annoying! Can't friggin wait for tomorrow to be over. It's like one of the major burden down!!

Anyway, it's C's birthday today!! We're gonna celebrate it together with her during the night. MAY IT BE A TIME OF HER LIFE!(: Exciteddddd ^-^

Yup, so it's time for me to head to bed. My session's in the morning(sighz). Gotta be in school by 0815am. Wish me the best people!

Nights!(:

Life

“There have been lots of ups and downs, but ultimately at the end of the day, that’s what makes you who you are. We all know how to laugh, we all know how to cry, we all know how to love back, and we’re all familiar with heartbreak, but the world keeps moving and we keep moving with it and everything we experience helps us realize how beautiful life really is."

SCM

Cheering for Standard Chartered Marathon.

Wake up.

I need to fix myself. I'm getting too lazy nowadays, getting so tired without any reasons & i don't have the motivation for school at all. I'm just practically wasting my time right now. I don't even think i am putting my 100% to do my work when I've promised to study hard this semester. I know i'm gonna regret if my attitude continues being like that.. I know what are the consequences but i am not doing anything at all. Where is the motivation?

I promise..

"I suck with words. but sometimes, words aren’t the thing. Love isn’t about words; it’s about what you do. And what I did, running away, it was stupid. We both know love is a big, scary, evil concept. But if you feel it, it’s going to follow you around like a hungry dog. I didn’t mean to say that love is a dog. I just mean I’m not going anywhere. I love you. If love beats me up, let’s just beat it up right back. We can do this. If you’re ready to make the jump, I’ll be right there to catch you."

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Eletheowl

"The best part of having a relationship is getting to call the person or lay down next to them and tell them all the crazy things that happened to you all day long. And in the end that’s what it’s about, kids. It’s not about the sex, it’s not about the money that they give you or whatever. It’s not about how good-looking they are, it’s about, can they listen to you talk for hours and hours and hours about stupid shit that doesn’t matter. And if they can, then you’re meant to be together forever. Even if that means you have to call them 100 times, that’s okay."

I don't want this moment to end, where everything's nothing without you.

I think i should start blogging regularly right? Haha, but sometime's i'm just to lazy to update..

I'm feeling so tired right now, my eyes are on the verge of shutting down but i'm gonna get this done first before i go to bed. I've UT on my no school day tomorrow, damn it. But it's the last UT already(:

Life's good, very very good for me right now. I am a very happy person, having something to look forward to every time i wake up(: Whenever i'm happy, i'd always wish for this to last forever. & i wish for this to last. I know people always say nothing last forever, but i'd do my best to make things work and last as long as it could.

Days with jooooonyboooooy has been good. I enjoyed every single moment of it. Especially today. We went for a proper date, just the two of us & it was rather impromptu. He came to pick me up after my UT and drove down to Kovan for laksa. Rather satisfying for a rainy weather! Caught Rapunzel thereafter & the movie is so awesomeeeeeeee! I wish i had magic hair like Rapunzel tooo!

Okay i really cannot tahan already. I'm typing this with my eyes closed. I need my sleep now.

But before i go, i'll end this post with this(:

Goodnight all~