Just gonna stand there and watch me burn.

I've been keeping it inside me for so long. & it still hurts so bad. I was talking to A the other day & it made me realize something. We were never meant to be together, at all. & that hurt me. Till now, everything you do, still affects me. & that hurt me. I realize i was just lying to myself that one day we could be together again, but i know we can't because the same problems would continue arising & that hurt me. I want to be that girl, who was once important in your life, but i know i will no longer have that position & that hurt me. I don't know long this is gonna last, i don't know when the wounds will heal..

I am stuck, i can't get myself out of this. & that hurt me.