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Sigh, during the night it's the hardest.. Idk why but i feel so much more emotional during the night. I want to cry, i want to scream, i want everything that i cannot have ): I want to talk to you so so bad, i want to see you sooooooooooo badly but i know it will never work. I want to be strong. ON MY OWN.

Wished we could still be happy like before. Always teasing one another, laughing at our jokes, calling each other fat, farting at each other's faces, watching shows on funshion together, trying to act like liu sing & jiu gu niang, cooking together, our gok lok chok, teasing snowball, masking together, washing the car together, stealing my pillow, pulling each other's hair, playing fishing joy together, eating & getting fat together, running together, playing badminton together, plucking armpit hairs, lying down beside one another doing nothing, sitting at the beach having heart to heart talks, tucking me to bed, commenting & laughing at random strangers, wearing your shirt to sleep, warning me in a joking manner asking me to stop wearing your tshirts because you want to wear them out, dancing to your club song like doraemon, doing your angry face & so many more........

Goodbye forever.

They are all memories now.